'Make it glam 'OPEN

[viviennebrookemays]

Is it you I keep thinking of?
Should I feel like I do?
I've come to know that I miss your love
While I'm not missing you

Viv was pretty but not as gorgeous as Serena. All the girls at school had one thing in common and that was being jealous of Serena. She always made everything look so good. She hated her for that but Serena was so sweet that she forgot about her jealousy. Jenny might be the Queen B of the school at the moment but Viv didn't consider her to be that pretty. She was only good at taking people down. Viv thought she was more pretty than Jenny was. She didn't see any guys lining up to date Jenny. She doesn't see guys lining up to date her either. She was scared of commitment. She wanted to protect her heart.

"I don't know. I never fell in love before. The thought of love scares me. I don't think love is exactly for me," Viv replied. She get the concept of love. Love was supposed to be cute and sweet but at the end of love, there was always tragedy and hurt. She couldn't go through her heart breaking from a guy. She would feel pathetic and cry. She hate crying. She doens't want to cry for someone who won't cry for her. Her tears was valuable to her because it was a sign of hurt. She doesn't want a guy to think he has a hold on her and that she would take him back whenever he wants to be with her. She wouldn't take any guys back unless they really showed that they want to be with her.

"I should do what I want. I'm old enough to make my decisions," Viv finally said. Serena made her realize that she shouldn't care what her parents want. Viv needed to be happy and do her own thing. She didn't have to follow her parents footsteps when it comes to what they did when they were her age. They were her age back in the 70s, which was the height of disco era. She wondered if her parents ever did drugs in their life. She doubt it. Her parents are always too busy to see her or even do anything wild. She wondered if her parents were wild while they were her age. She never took the time to ask but why should she take the time to ask if they don't even want to spend time with her. It seemed that being the Elite world meant that parents don't know who their children are.

Her parents don't know Viv's darkest secret. They don't know how much money she spends on shopping nor do they know that she was sexually active or even drink. All they know of their daughter is that she launched her site and working hard to get her work out there more. Her parents even told her that they'll help her start up a shop in the city for her to sell her clothes. Eventually she will have stores all over the world and she will become successful. She already had the location of her shop. She wanted it to be somewhere expensive where only the rich can be her designs. "Go to Paris with Blair. Going with best friends is always fun. You guys could meet some cute French boys and hook up with them," she said. Viv wanted to go to Paris with her best friend. She wouldn't mind hooking up with some cute French boys. They had gorgeous accents and knew how to have fun.

"I honestly don't know what I want in a guy except they have to be fun and sweet," she told Serena. "I think I'll look somewhere else for a guy. My reputation here is exactly the cleanest here. I think a new start would be good for me," she admitted. Viv knew she had a reputation as being one of the sluttest girl around but she had seen girls who were more slutty than she was. Lets face it, she at least slept with guys who were either cute or rich. She wasn't like a prostitute who asked money from the guy. She had only had done that once and no one found about it, which made her very happy. She couldn't imagine what others would think of her. They would probably be disgusted with her but they already know her reputation so maybe not.

"If I do find the right guy, I won't ever let him go. If he let me go though...that's a different story," Viv said. If a guy let her go but then regret it, she will make it somewhat harder for him to get her back. She wasn't going to forgive him that easily. Even if she did love the guy, she wants him to prove that he loved her and won't ever let her go again. He has to do more than just say it. He would have to figure out ways to show it. If he was rich and had a private jet, he could take her to Paris or somewhere else that's romantic. All she needs is a romantic gesture that he loves her. But until she meet that guy, she will focus on her career and try to become successful. Her goal was to become successful before the age of 25. She wanted to be rich and be able to support herself without a man.

Word Count: 893
Tagged: Open
Outfit: Outfit
Notes: Sorry it took a while, been busy =/
Lyrics: Fleurs Du Mal by Sarah Brightman

[SERENA VAN DER WOODSEN]

[/b][/color] If she hadn’t given a chance to Dan when she met him in that strange way, she would probably not be with him right now and she would have missed a lot of things. Maybe she would be happier, or worst, she will never know, but she knew there were things she would never forgive herself if she never did them.

“I could have made the wall around Dan, after all the things that happened before I met him and things that were happening at that moment, I didn’t want more problems, but I just got that feeling and look at us now.” Well, maybe that wasn’t the best example, but if they had go so far it’s because they loved each other, though lately… lately she was thinking they were still together because they were afraid of what it was going to happen if they break up for good. Serena would fee strange not having someone and about Dan… well she didn’t know but maybe they were holding on because it was all they knew. “We never know if love is for us, that’s why we have to try and what doesn’t kill you makes you strong… or so they say.” She was so used to be hurt for love; she knew there was a good side and… the tragic side of it. No one ever talked about the tragic side, not on films or whatever, no, they always said it was amazing and worth it and sometimes hurt. “Yes, you are.” She had took her time to realize that, and Serena knew what it mean to have a mother who was always around you trying to get you to do what they want, give some imagine, work on that, study this… well, she had broke that long ago, she knew she wanted to be her, not what they wanted her to be.

Parents tend to forget how things were when they had their age, they hided all they did, the parties, the fun, the lovers… they tried to give their children they impression that they were always the same serious and responsible parents, they weren’t. “They like to act as if they were never young, which is not possible at all.” She was sure her mother had her share of fun when she was young but… how to say it without her getting to much information? Going to Paris with Blair, but going with her wasn’t exactly what she was planning on doing, but what other thing she could do? At least she would got some free time and fun, if Blair wasn’t so busy, that’s it. “Yes, I would probably do that, will call Blair and we will just disappear.” People thought Blair and her would like, kill each other if they could and that their friendship was as fake as the smile Serena gave to some people on her life, but that wasn’t true. So Blair was a bitch and she loved to be in the spotlight and she blamed Serena of stealing it, without even meaning to, but Serena was as bad as Blair when she wanted to. They fought, tried to bring each other down, but then they make up and were back to her old friendship and traditions. “You are right, well I mean… it’s not exactly a secret with Gossip Girl… you can’t have private life....” No one life was protected from Gossip Girl, they all had something she would find and expose, and Serena hated her but at the same time loved her, if she wanted to hurt someone she just had to send a rumor to GG and everyone will know.

Their relationship with Gossip Girl was twisted and strange, they hated her but used her when they needed to, no one was free of that, and everyone could be a target or the author of spreading the gossip… “But even to those who give credit to her… and I mean believe the things she said, most of them won’t even care...” wasn’t always the case but people won’t give the time of the day to certain rumors, there were dozens of sluts in New York, and okay, it will take you time to get a formal boyfriend because all the guys will see you as the sexy toy but after a while they find one they are comfortable with and the rumors will fade away. “You know how this work, one day everyone will talk about you and the next they will totally forget you exist because they had another rumor or person to bring down.” Of course, when you are on a relationship not everything depended on you, but on the other side too and you can’t control everything. “You can’t control that, all you can do it’s take it as slightly as possible and don’t give up.” Serena smiled her sweetly and pointed to the door with her head after paying for the things she was going to get, she planned on getting her dress as soon as possible.[/left]
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[viviennebrookemays]

Is it you I keep thinking of?
Should I feel like I do?
I've come to know that I miss your love
While I'm not missing you

Viv wasn't the only girl who hated Serena for her looks. Serena probably already knows that every girl is jealous of her. Viv wouldn't be surprised if Blair was a bit jealous of Serena but not because of her looks but because Serena always seems to steal the spotlight off of anyone who was with her. Viv already knew if something happened that would be amazing, it would be for Serena. Serena always had something good happen to her. But she knew Serena also had bad things to happen to her. Everyone had something bad happen to them though. Viv would still wished she could look as gorgeous as Serena and be able to wear anything and still look good. All the girls who knew Serena wished they could have Serena's looks. But they don't.

"That's true. I guess if the right guy comes along, I'll let down my guard," she responded. Serena always enlightened Viv. That was one thing she liked about Serena. Serena was nice, which Viv liked but Serena was also very smart. She didn't know Serena's family that well but she knew Serena's reputation. Serena wasn't the cleanest girl in the Upper East Side but neither was anyone else. Viv didn't care that Serena was a party girl or the rumors that spread about her while she was in boarding school. Viv knew everyone had their secrets. She was a bitch but unless Serena ever done anything that hurt Viv, Viv will find her secrets. Jenny was probably most likely trying to find out Viv's secrets. Viv was pretty good at keeping everything hidden though.

Viv wasn't sure that was the best example she used. "But you guys aren't exactly doing that great," Viv replied. She wasn't sure if she could handle a relationship that was like Serena's and Dan's. They weren't exactly the best couple around. They were cute together but they also fought. Everyone couple fight though. Viv knew that. It was just that Dan and Serena has more of a complicated relationship than anyone she knows. She hoped she had more of a smooth relationship than Serena has at the moment. At least she would have one thing going for her. Viv had her own fashion designs which she has going. She already has an interview with a guy from huge magazine company that was interested in her designs. She was exciting. He even said if he liked her and her work, he could have her designs out in expensive stores and even open up a store somewhere in New York. Viv was very excited but yet nervous for the interview.

"I guess there is a good side and a bad side to everything," Viv mentioned after listening to Serena explain herself. She smiled as she thought about love. She always wanted to feel loved but she was scared of the tragic side. The side where she would get hurt most likely somehow by her lover. She wasn't sure if she could deal with that but if Serena was right, she could only get stronger. "I'm noticing that there is a lot of Royal people around New York. Have you met with any of them yet?" she asked curiously. Viv was about to meet Jasmine but she got distracted by something. She couldn't remember what distracted her but something did. She wished she could meet more of the Royal family. She would love them to wear some of her clothes. That would put her name out in the world somehow. Especially when the camera people ask them who they are wearing.

"Yeah. I wonder if my parents did anything crazy when they were my age," Viv thought out loud. She couldn't imagine her parents partying at all. They only talk about when they were her age, they were already working on building an empire that the whole world would know about one day and that work have paid off. They want their daughter to be successful in the business world but also be rich. Money was huge when it came to the business world. Viv would have to know how to play the game of money. She already had competition. Her competition is Jenny. Jenny was also trying to become a fashion designer but Viv thought she was better. Unlike Jenny, Viv already had connections to magazines and other well known people. If she does well in the interview, she will already have her name out there once they publish the magazine with her work in it.

Viv couldn't understand how Serena and Blair could still be friends after everything they have done to each other. Her best friend wasn't exactly the cleanest of them all but she wouldn't have ever hurt Viv with Gossip Girl. Viv on the other hand, was more like Blair. She would text Gossip Girl all the dirt she had with her best friend if they got into a fight. In a way, their friendship was as good but yet ugly as anyone else that was on the Upper East Side. Life on the Upper East side wasn't exactly the best thing in the world but Viv loved it. There was drama, gossip, heartbreak, and fun. She loved the parties in the Upper East Side the most. She loved the boys and of course Gossip Girl. She would love to be the center of attention when it came to Gossip Girl.

Viv listened as she nodded. Gossip Girl was a girl you love but yet hate her. Everyone hate her cause she would spread rumors about others but love her because anyone can spread the rumors to destory someone. She loved to start rumors about other people if they messed with her. She was looking for something about Jenny. There have to be something about Jenny she can spread. She already hired someone to find something out about her. It was something she was excited to get. "Well, the ones that give her credit always end up chosing sides. For example, younger girls who read Gossip Girl are either team Dan or Team some other guy who like or dated. It kinds of reminds me of Twilight. Like Team Edward or Team Jacob," Viv said. She wondered who was on her team. She wasn't as big as Serena or Blair though. No one was as big with Gossip Girl as Serena and Blair. Even Jenny wasn't as huge as Serena or Blair. Jenny had a lot of catching up to do.

"Yeah. It's good though. Especially if the rumor is nasty," Viv responded. Viv remembered when everyone knew the guys she had slept with. She didn't care. She wasn't looking for a relationship and she still didn't but she wouldn't mind falling in love though. That would be a good thing. She would love to fall in love with someone. She would love the feeling of being loved. That would make her very happy. "That's the best anyone can do," Viv replied. She smiled as she paid for the locket then headed out the door. She hoped to find a gorgeous dress to wear to ball.

Word Count: 1188
Tagged: Open
Outfit: Outfit
Notes: None
Lyrics: Fleurs Du Mal by Sarah Brightman